Thursday, July 21, 2011

June and July!

Well- I, once again, I have forsaken you my dear blog... for that- I am sorry. So here's my life update on whats been going on in the Mac's house.

June is literally a blur. It has flown by as quickly as it came. I came back from vacation and it seems like everything immediately went back into full swing.

1.We spent the 4th of July at home. This was the first year that I did not go to my parents' house for a visit. I woke up on the 3rd of July sick as a dog. We had our niec , Shelby, visiting for the week so I tried to save face, but it was useless. I called off the visit to my parents' house. On the 4th of July, despite the virus that I had picked up, we wanted to make sure that Shelby had fun, so we attemped to go to Coney Island. It was HOT. But we still managed to have so much fun there with her. And the Fireworks were amazing! However I was dumb and totally forgot my camera so the Coney Island trip was not picture documented at all... which makes me sad.

2. My little man, Ave, is as rotten as ever. He has brought so much joy to our lives. With each stage he grows into, there are whole new adventures that he brings with him. He is almost 18 months old. 18 MONTHS! Is that even possible? He acts so much more like a little independent boy that I really have to stop and enjoy the little moments when he's mine. Like last night, He was so tired but couldn't sleep. So he actually laid in my arms while I rocked him to sleep. The whole time, I'm trying to mentally capture the moment. Hold him...Stare at him as he sleeps.. I am so thankful for God's gift in Avery. Some new milestones lately:
1. he's talking.. .sometimes in his own language. But nonetheless, he's talking. His favorite phrase right now is "Oh No!"
2. He's a fully active little boy- running, jumping, climbing
3. He loves cucumbers, pickles, and onions.
4. He loves toy cars and any kind of sports ball.
5. He has mastered time out, due to his wonderful ability to hit.
But all in all- he's a blessing!

3. The third event that is consuming my life right now is the fact that our central air went out. Just so know, today is suppose to be the hottest day of the year with a heat index of 115.... and we are sitting in a house with a small window air conditioner at about 85 degrees. I am trying not to complain because I know that this is an everyday reality for some. But it is very hard to deal with when you have an 18 month old. BUT yeah. Not to mention the fact that it will cost us an arm and a leg after it's all said and done.

4. And finally- I am starting a new adventure.... I always told myself that I would not start a direct sales thing again.. I tried Mary Kay, and Beauticontrol- but I am about to eat my own words... Starting tomorrow, I will be the newest 31 gifts consultant. I am hopeing that this time will be differnet but who knows! I was really praying for something to do that would actually get me involved with people outside of the church bubble. Don't get me wrong, I love the people who I go to church with and the friends that I have. But I would like to get to know more people! And being that I am so not the type to walk up to strangers and fire up a conversation, I decided what the heck! I absolutly love the products that 31 has, I love that they are not very well known in the area, and I am excited to meet new ladies and have a hobby outside of church! For thoes that are not aware of what 31 is, it's a direct sales company that was started in 2004. 31 was named after Proverbs 31, which talks about the characteristics of a strong, virtuous woman. 31 sells boutique-like bags, purses, organizers, baskets- at a more affordable than boutique prices.

So stay tuned for more updates about 31!

Anyway- thats life for me! What about you???


Tuesday, May 31, 2011


Well, it feels a little eerie today. Last week was our vacation to the Smokeys, and up until last week when I was having a rough day I could look at the calendar and go "2 weeks until vaca!" or "2 days".. and NOW it's over. So, I'm sad. It was a great vacation so I thought I'd post some of my favorite pictures.

We had a great time on each day, making great memories.

I am already looking forward to next year's vacation, even though I don't even know where it is.

Much needed.


Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Oh Harold (shakes head)

I remember the first time my grandma told me about "the rapture". I was 6 years old or so. She talked about it as any good ol' southern Baptist would. She explained how Jesus would return and take every living Christian to heaven. In the process, she said, unmanned cars would careen into homes and pedestrians, planes would collide with suburbs and skyscrapers. Ok, maybe thoes weren't her exact words, but they may as well have been.. I layed in bed, staring at the ceiling, my heart thumping..

I didn't attend church, and hadn't said the sinners prayer... but I did that night. Mainly because I was scared sick to think that I'd be left in an apocalyptic America run by the anti-Christ and his minions.

But years went by. My love for God never developed. I actaully HATED going to church with the grandparents. In the same way a child will fake illness' to skip school, I did the same with church. I remember telling grandma and papaw that the pews gave me debilitating back pain. They were wood.

And then at the age of 15 years old I was asked by a friend to attend a Christian concert. I reluctantly agreed. I hadn't stepped in church since my grandparents quit hounding me, and I wasn't in a rush to get back. But since this was a friend I decided to suck it up.

I was surprised when I actually enjoyed the concert. And then about midway through, the band leader stops and recites a passage- Matthew 7:22-24 "(A)Many will say to Me on (B)that day, 'Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in Your name, and in Your name cast out demons, and in Your name perform many miracles?'23"And then I will declare to them, 'I never knew you; (C)DEPART FROM ME, YOU WHO PRACTICE LAWLESSNESS.'

My heart started to pound out of my chest. The leader went on to talk about judgement day, and how many will be turned because "they never knew Him". I could feel my body trying trembling, and I began to shift to find a comfortable position. I glanced around "what is going on?" I asked myself hoping to see signs that others are having the same emotional delima..But there was none. Finally the leader asked that everyone bow their heads, and asked that they repeat the sinners prayer if they felt God was leading them. So I did.

So yes, at the age of 15 I asked God to come into my heart out of fear, not at all unlike the time I did at the age of 6. But, at 15, I found Jesus through the imperfections of my motivations. I found the scriptures, and fell in love with God's heart. At I never have looked back.

So with all of the talk about rapture lately, and the continual badgering of the elderly man, Harold Camping, who is making these claims( I know I have made a few jabs), I couldn't help but wonder about every family that has been effected. How sobering is it when we consider all of the finances that have been poured into this 'ministry'..All of the lives ruined.. All of the people who, yes, out of fear made a committment to God hoping to escape Hell

And then God reminded me of my own salvation story. So I am believing that there are people out there who saw Harold's outrageous predictions and decided "I better get myself right!" And are now on a journey that they may not have started otherwise.

I saw the newest prediction from Harold Camping this morning that on October 21st the world would end. I had to bite my tounge-thoughts. (Yes, I said tounge-thoughts)... And pray for Harold and the emotional stress he must be undergoing ... And then I am reminded to trust.

I think Shaun Groves said it best in his blog "I trust that the death and resurrection of Jesus appeased a God who hates sin and turned away his wrath. I trust that He keeps His promises – that He will never leave me in this life or the next. I trust that life beside Him anywhere is better than life at a distance down here. I trust that He knows history because He is its Author. And I trust He'll forgive Harold Camping for getting it wrong on October 21st, and forgive me for not always wishing the Harolds of this world were right when they predicted a rapture."


Monday, May 16, 2011

Reality Check

When you have a child, all of a sudden there are random moments in the midst of your daily life, that you get interrupted and you hear God say"that's what I'm talking about !"
That's been me, alot. lately.
The other day Avery was literally climbing up (or at least attempting to climb up) the entertainment center. You see, on top of the entertainment center sets many coooool gadgets. Gadgets that light up, or buzz, or are just bright colored (tv. remotes, our phones, wii/ xbox controller). So when I caught him in mid action,  I ran over to Ave and picked him up. I pulled him away from all of the distractions and bent down to make eye contact. You see, every single blog and book I have came across that gives methods of discipline has said that making good eye contact with your little one is key to getting across the message. Yes, he's only 14 months old, but I know that if I do not start practicing some of this now, it will NEVER be effective.
 SO anyway-  back to the story. I caught the little monster climbing, so I picked him up and took him out of the living room. But the thing is, although I had literally removed him from the distractions and bent down to make eye contact and let him know that it was not okay to climb, his little eyes were darting across the room. He was standing right in front of me, but looking past me, squirming and whining. He was more interested in what was behind me or beside me and we seriously struggled for several minutes. I stood him in front of he and gently held his shoulders enought to keep him still....  I knew that I couldn't give up! I knew I could not just say "ok nevermind, go play" I sat there and starred so hard at him until his little eyes FINALLY met mine. It took some tears. It took some real patience. But finally, His little eyes stopped darting. His cries finally quieted down, and he looked at me in the eyes. I was able to finally say "No, you can't climb up there". Andit seemed like he got it!
So after that little ordeal happened and he was back in action playing with his toys. I sat down on the couch drinking my coffee, just thinking about how hard it was to get that simple message across. It wouldn't have taken so much energy, had he just stopped! .. And then, BAM... I could feel the presence of God. I could feel God saying to me "that's what I have to do to with you, Amber!"
So many many many times in my life and even now I can see that God is trying to teach me to look my Heavenly Father in the eyes. When there is a crisis either big or small, I will shoot up a prayer all the while my eyes are more distracted on what's on either side of my life. Although I say with my mouth, I'm trusting God, I am spiritally looking to my left and right. My focus is not Him. When I have a burden, I'm so consumed with it, that I although God is there, starring me down harrrd (like I did with Ave) I am still like a panicked mess.. When I have desires of my heart, like being home with Avery more, I rarely tell God. Instead I try to work out the kinks and finances and never truly give it to God.  I know God wants me to be still, and make eye contact, listen.. But I'm like a 14 month old child who struggles to focus on the thing right in front of my face!!
Ok. I realize that I am blabbering a little.
  But That's been my epiphany over the weekend. And I am realizing just how hard it is to stop and focus.... which makes me a little more sympathetic for the 14 month old that had to get pulled from the entertainment center a half dozen times even after "he got it"... yes I get frustrated, but I never give up on getting that message across. And I know God doesn't give up either. He's there, starring me down (in a loving way of course)!.
Anyway- I do want to apoligize for the lack of posts. I could probably list 300 reasons why I haven't posted lately, but I'm not gonig to. I will say, I was pleasantly surprised to get a few emails about some waiting on a new post. So sorry for the 3-5 people who actually read this crazy thing! ;)


Tuesday, April 05, 2011

organizing isn't my strong suit.. BUT

I need to organize..

So life has been nothing short of EXTREME CHAOS..
at least that's the way it feels. So lately, I have been trying really hard to make life feel a little more organized. I will occasionally get on an organizational kick, and 9 times out of 10 it is when I'm internally feeling like a mess! So- I guess it's an outward attempt at cleaning inward too?? I don't know.

All I know is I sporadically called my husband on Friday and told him I was renting a carpet cleaning machine and we needed to clean ALL of the carpets... And then I was going to clean out the closets.. And that I needed to wash every linen in our house... and that the pantry and the fridge were in need of a deep cleaning. And Avery's room was unorganized and I needed to completely rearrange it. So I did. I did it all..

Mind you- I was battling a stomach bug this weekend too- but I think the busyness helped keep my mind off of my illness, and the everything.

Also, This week- I am going to work HARD on getting a healthier food plan together, and to stick to it. I've have had a weekly meal planner routine for awhile now. But, sometimes life happens, and the frozen nuggets in the freezer look a lot more tempting to make (5 min) than the home glazed/ baked ham, asperagus and salad(1.5 hrs) that was on the meal plan when you've worked all day.. So I will admit it, our diets have slacked. Justin has complained of gaining weight and I can't help but to feel a little guilty about that. On my end- for whatever reason, all of my crazy days of running have helped me in that department. I am officially 1 lb. below my pre-pregnancy weight.

So anyway- I am going to experiment with some new ways of organizing meals and see how it goes. There is something about a clean (more) organized enviornment that brings a new peace to ya. I seem to sleep better, to wake up more energized, to be a happier person altogether.. Especially in midst of crazy chaos in life.


Friday, March 18, 2011

My Photo Book

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Wednesday, March 09, 2011

10 signs 30 is a'comin

So the other night Justin and I were flipping through the channels and then somhow landed on QVC. We are not QVC'ers and I guess I had always saw it as something that 'old' people watch.. So, we both found it amusing when we found ourselves calling in and making a purchase. Yes, I will admitt it, I shop on the home shopping network.

Since that happened, and now that I am going on 28 (and Justin will be 30 this year), I started to think about other little things about me that has changed since I am approaching the big 3-0.

Top 10 signs 30 is a'comin:

1. Your favorite clothing stores has evolved from the typical young Aeropostal/ American Eagle- to Banana Republic/ New York Co./ ANYTHING on sale at Khols... or just anything on sale period.

2. You're now much more thankful for how speed bumps slow those young punks down

3.You have tried to use the phrase "gettin jiggy with it" recently and had blank stares.

4. You actually remember taking a class in high school where we learned what the Internet was and how to use it. I remembering learning how to look up a web page and how to search for things. SERIOUSLY. That's how old I am, dudes! And floppy disks were actaully floppy ! I think that the floppy disks were when I was in elementary school, but still! I am pretty sure that I am going to tell my grandkids that.

5. When you try to entertain your 13 month old by doing a sommer sault you end up in pain. Seriously, I heard a crack..

6. If your up past 10 o'clock you feel like a party animal.

7. I remember a time in my teen years when a weekend with no plans was "horrible!!!" NOW-A weekend with no plans is BEYOND awesome.

8. I realize that in just a few short years I won't be invited to the "20 somes" group in church!

9. When we finally decided to go out to a movie, concert, etc. You leave about 10 minutes before the encore to "beat the rush"

10. You stop dreaming of hitting it big (winning money, becoming a disney star, muscian, olympic athlete, etc.,etc..) and start dreaming of having your son do it instead (haha, poor Avery)

Thoes are just a FEW that I could come up with. Are there anymore that you can think of?


Tuesday, March 08, 2011

Dear Tony

Dear Tony Horton,
My husband and I decided to start P90X...again. You see, I tried it after my baby was born. I didn't make to day 90 though, I believe we reached day 40 and then realized that having a newborn crying all night, while having to work full-time  all day, and then come home and do the p90x thing wasn't going to mesh. BUT Even with only making it to day 40, I was able to lose 15lbs!
SO- with summer around the corner and with me approaching 30 I thought "let's do this....hardcore style. Forget these small workouts. Im doing the whole stinkin thing..yeeeeeeeah".. I was motivated to say the least.
That was 3 days ago.
we did the full abs workout. And the word "hurts" has taken a new meaning. It hurts to stand. It hurts to walk to the bathroom. It hurts to bend over to put in the P90X dvd. It hurts to pet the cat. It hurts to pick up my 30 lb. child that wants to hang off of me. It hurts to breath. it hurts to do the dishes... It hurts to roll over in bed.. It actually hurts so much that I thought for a moment that "this can't be normal- it just can't. Am I THAT out of shape? ".... And I only did the 15 minute ab workout.
So, Tony, I missed day 2 because I don't think I could have made it out of the door- today if I would have attempted it last night.. but I am going to try it tonight. *gulp*...............
See you later tonight,



so, if you are even a once-a-year reader of this blog, you will know that I rarely.  RARELY use this blog to review products. This blog over the years has taken different identities, and right now, at this point in my life my heart is being a mom, so you have probably noticed that 90% of things I write are in reference to my experience as a new mommy. I have always said that blogging is a wonderful outlet and great way to make a logg of some memories. I use my blog for me... so this entry is a little different, so let me explain.

One thing that I have been dealing with is the horrible ear infection with my son, Ave. If you have children at any age, an ear infection is something that WILL happen. Every child I know has had an ear infection at some point. Well, I thought that we had done well when Ave turned 6 months with no infections. And then within the following 6 months it was like one ear infection would just follow the other. Every cold turned into an ear infection. Every sinus-ey type of respiratory thing turned into an ear infection. Even a runny nose would turn into an ear infection.

So the other day, Avery had woke up at 5 am screaming and grabbing his ears. So my first reaction is "ohh, no...not again!" I called into work and let them know I had to, once again, get Avery to the dr... So this time around, I knew that with this being his 5th ear infection in 6 months that the surgery talk about putting tubes in Avery's ears was immanent...

And that's exactly what the Dr. suggested. He gave us another antibiotic, and said, "ya know, if he gets another infection we are going to have seriously look at tubes "..


SO that evening, I went home with a mission. I didn't care how long it would take or what it was, I needed to find a remedy. Surely there was something that wasn't so invasive. I will say that I know many wonderfully happy kids that have tubes in their ears,  no parents wants to put their 1 year in any kind of surgery (even if its a short 5 min. procedure) if it's able to be avoided, right??! Not to even mention the fact that it is an expensive procedure too.

So I started the research...and I researched and researched.hours ... And then I came upon something that seemed, literally too good to be true. Literally.

The Eardoc. It is  a non-invasive approved medical device for middle ear infection (Otitis media) treatment and other conditions involving ear pain in children and adults.

It's a tool that is placed behind the ear, (in lamens terms) simply vibrated, breaking up the fluids that cause the middle ear infection..

Ok. So my inital reaction is, "this is not serious right?" It's too simple. This magic little tool can literally save my son,avery, the pain of infection going through this surgery??? No way..

A normal Amber would just say "well, thats weird and cool... but no way in hatis am I going to buy this thing. IT IS FROM ISRAEL. No way..TOTAL SCAM preying on desperate moms like me looking for an answer."

But the desperate mom in me had maybe an unrealistic hope in this little tool. I went ahead and researched it through the hundreds of reviews on you tube, throughout the internet, through medical websites, even well known Dr. Sears embraces it, and through other mom blogs who were trying to figure if this whole thing is a scam...

So I had that "what the heck! Let's do it!" moment and impulsivley bought it online. And even though I dropped the $55.00 hoping to see it do some magic, the rational part of me was extremely skeptical that it would really make a difference. I watched my credit card for weeks thinking that some random activity would pop up because it could have been a scam. But it didn't... My credit card company did think that the Israel purchase was a scam, so I did have to call them and explain that it was a legit purchase, but other than that it was cool.

SO.... Fast forward 2 weeks.
Avery had been walking for a good week, but then decides that he doesn't want to. I start to panic because I was thinking that something was up with his ears. The Eardoc It comes in the mail- and just in time. So I sat him down and placed the eardoc behind his ear. He sat extremely still and let me use it for 1 minute on each ear. Literally, an hour later he gets up and starts walking EVERWHERE. I was shocked. Was it the eardoc? maybe! Either way I was so happy. He has had a few days that I noticed an eartug so I'd use the ear doc and it seems to really help him out. I will say that I am not sure that the surgery is still out of the question.. We have an ear appointment on Wednesday. So we will see how well this thing has done.. But with how it has worked for us so far, I would definatly recommend it!


Friday, February 11, 2011


Ok! Now that Avery is a full year old, I am really trying to figure out the *gulp* discipline* word.

When we had a child, discipline is probably the very last thing on the "what I should probably figure out" list. And now, I feel like the deadline is here and I still don't have it figured out.

A few weeks ago, I went to pick up Avery at our friend Rebecca's house. She then explained to me that a little boy had bit Avery. Honestly, I really wasn't phased by this. Yes, he got a little 'owie', but he's with other little kids and things like that will happen when he's with other kids. I probably could easily overreact (yes, Im a first time mom) and freak out, but I know that I can't put him in a plastic bubble.

But anyway- A few days later, Avery was upset at me because of the fact that he had picked up my cell phone and I had taken it from him " no Avery, that's not a toy", I said.

He then looked at me, wrinkled up his little forehead and and he began to scream, and throw his little body down on the floor. It was his first "fit". So I picked him up, set him on my lap and made eye contact "No.. that's not okay, Avery." I said with as stern as a voice as I could muster.I set him back down and tried to hand him a toy. He, again, thew his little body down on the floor .. and then he leaned in and.. bit me... yep. The little one year old bit...

and at that moment a couple things happened: A) I was taken back to the week prior when I was told by Rebbecca that another little boy had did that to him. Of course he had picked this up from other little ones, but that still doesn't justify his actions. And B) I realized that the "the disciple deadline" was here, and I needed to figure out what was right for us- like now.

So- At that point, instinctively, I gave his little hand a pat/smack. Enough for him to connect the two actions so maybe his little one year old mind will put the dots together and he would be like "OK, that's not OK for me to do"....And then I put him in the pack and play in our room for a few minutes. Yes, he wasn't a happy camper, but after a few minutes I went back in there and scooped him him and embraced him. It bothered ME more than I think the whole scenario bothered him. And then the realization hit me that I need to sit down with Justin and figure what our choice in disciplining Avery is going to be.


Don't we all just wish that we didn't have to disciple our children? HAHA. I mean, that they just came out perfect and kind?

But that is not the reality. And I am just starting to realize it. I have met wonderful parents on both sides of the spectrum when it comes to disciple (to spank/ to not spank). I think it's a very individual/ personal decision that we cannot force upon others.

I remember reading in Shaun Groves blog once when referring to God as a perfect parent" think of God birthing his children, naming his boy and girl, walking in the Garden with them. I imagine him planting those delicious trees, providing food enough. I see him talking with Adam and Eve face-to-face, spending quantity and quality time with his kids every day. I hear him protecting them, setting those all-important boundaries: you can do all this but definitely don’t do that over there.

And they still didn’t believe he had their best interests in mind.

They still didn’t trust him.

They didn’t eat right.

They still disobeyed

And they’re own kids wound up in a fight to the death.

Even perfect parents aren’t guaranteed an all-happy ending without regret, distrust, pain, and dysfunction."

There's no perfect parents or child out there, and I take comfort in that. I know that God knows my heart, and my love for Avery. God knows that I want to instill values and raise him to be a wonderful, respectful, loving man. I want him to know right from wrong, and to value discipline. Discipline is a key part of parenting and I am relying on God as I begin this journey!


Thursday, February 10, 2011

Birthday Boy Avery

It's 4:15 here and I'm taking a few minutes out of my day. Not because I have a few minutes to spare, but because I need to stop and take a breather. Even if it's just a few minutes, and I want to update of Avery's first official birthday!!!
Yesterday was Avery's offical one year birthday. He's going to have a small party with my mom and dad and justins parents too on Saturday, but as a way of celebrating it with him Justin and I both took a vacation day to spend with him. It was nice. And I really hope it to be something that we can continue to do yearly.

We started off the day in Cinci at the Dr.'s office. It wasn't realluy planned, but it just had to happen. I was a little nervous because this is a whole new physician, and Avery's been sick, and I just didn't know how I would feel. So Avery got examined and she immediately noticed his breathing difficulties. We talked about some of his recent problems and the she then prescribed some new meds. I'm hoping that this will be a better turn of events.

After the Dr. visit we stopped at Perkins and ordered a huge breakfast for the 3 of us. Avery even got to try his first eggs since he is now 1 year old! He loved them!! He hate a whole plate by himself.

We then ventured to Best Buy where Justin and I picked up a FlipCamera. We don't have anything for video other than a small feature on our digital camera so we thought that we would go ahead and get something to capture Avery's first b-day party.

We then made a round to the Newport Aquarium. Avery was actually scared of the fish, which was surprising to us. He eventually warmed up to the idea and would allow us to put him close to the tanks. It was alot of fun. We have a video- I will try to post it here later..

And finally we went home. Avery and I took a long nap, and when we woke up, Justin had made a trip out to get us fruit smoothies. We let avery drink a banana smoothie. And then we gave avery one of our birthday presents that we got him- I little red tent. When he saw us bring it out with a big red bow on it, he died laughing. He was so excited! So we spent the rest of the night playing hide and go seek with the tent until his little legs couldnt move he was so tired.

It was such a sweet, special day. We thought about spending the "family day" money to have a huge party with lots of friends and family, but opted to have just the three of us have an outing and I am so glad we did. It is probably going to be one of thoes memories I will tell Avery about when he's 30..

I think we may just stick with this idea, at least until he's old enough to say "ok. enough of you guys.. I want a huge party".. haha


Friday, February 04, 2011

Oh, the life of a workin momma!

News news news! Avery took his first stepS today. I am capitalizing the 'S' on steps because for the past month he has took a step here and there  but always ended up plopping on his bottom after the first step. Well, today Justin's momma calls me and informs me that Avery took his first STEPS . It's one of thoes things that you celebrate, but at the same time, it's truely a bitter sweet moment for me for selfish reasons.  I had always imagined seeing it happen and grabbing the camera and getting the photo of such a milestone. I have photos of his first bath, first smile, his first time he ate solid foods, the first time he sat up..etc., etc.  So I was HOPING that he would wait to walk for his momma (after work, of course!) 
 Being a working mother is the hardest job on the earth, hands down.I had no idea how straining emotionally it would be to be away from your child.  I love working and providing for my family, especially since we are on the road to a debt free life. And I want be able to provide things for Avery that others might not be able to, like college for example. (Which BTW, we started Avery's college fund for his 1 year birthday).  But then there are moments like these that hit you and you realize that even if you are working hard to get there, time doesn't wait, life still happens, My baby starts walking! ahh. If only life were easier and we all could just hit the lottery and be home with our babies. lol. paradise!
 I love my little man so much.  


Monday, January 24, 2011

The Learning Curve!

One thing that is super apparent now that I am a mommy- is that there is a steep learning curve that you go through, especially when it comes to our babies health. Avery, altough he's easily one of the happiest babies alive, hasn't had very great luck when it comes to an immune system. Yes, I followed the exact health guide, I breastfed, I made sure to sanitize EVERYTHING. But I suppose some children have a harder time than others. In any case, had you asked me about conjuntivities, trush, bronchitis, Fifth Disease before have Avery I would have looked at you like you were speaking jibberish to me. 

 From the first month of Avery's life I can recall something that has caused some sort of panic for me, whether is was a fever, asthma attack, hacking coughing/sneezing, conjuntivities, trush. etc.etc... . Avery is just turning 1, and I feel like I have went through an intensive graduate course on pediatrics! lol. Between the 3 asthma meds., and inhalers, the allergy meds, the many many accounts of having some sort of antibiotic in his system due to conjunctivitis (pink eye), bronchitis, or trush I sometimes feel as though the meds in themself have been a full time job. I will say, though that the last 4-5 months have been fairly easy and he's actually not been on anything but the asthma medication which is so nice. I switched him from a daycare setting with other babies to an in-home  child care of a girl that I go to church with. Since then I have seen a significant improvement in his health... BUT, for the last few weeks the little guy has seemed really fussy. He had a low grade fever last week so I kept him home a few days, but I couldn't tell what was up other than he had a low fever, runny nose, and a cough. He ended up developing a rash on his bottom which I did not associate with the cold at all- until he developed a SUPER red rash on the cheeks of his face.. At this point I called the Dr., who said " It sounds like Fifth's Disease".  "Fifth's disease!!! what is it!!!!!????" I panicked once again.

After reading up on it, I felt a little better knowing that  it's pretty common  little virus among little ones... But it still scares the bijeebeez out of you when you learn that your baby has something. The bright side of it is the red rash on his face is really the final stage of this "Fifth's Disease" so he should be good as new here soon. And he actually slept well last night which made me feel better.

So anyway- keep the little guy in your prayers !~


Friday, January 21, 2011

Just a day with the Macs

So, Ave and I got snowed in yesterday. In an attempt to entertain the little guy, I decided to jump out from underneath the kitchen table. Avery LOVED it. Loved it... and I sound very- weird and scary. lol... but it makes for some good memories!~


Friday, January 14, 2011


Last year this week I was 36 weeks pregnant!!!! seriously! Click here to see!


2010 review

Wow. Can you believe that we are officially half way through January? It really doesn't seem possible. At all. But we are! I can't believe that 2010 is over and done with, it just seems like yesterday that it begun. So, although I am 2 weeks late on this post, I thought I'd give an overview of the year.

- 2010 was our first full year of being homeowners! It's been a wonderful thing to feel as if we are official adults. With homeownership we have had to deal with broken garbage disposal and central air going out. I think it was the first hit to me that "we own the home" when the garbage disposal quit working and I couldn't call the trusty old landlord... But it's been awesome to have the freedom to make our home our very own, and to not feel as if we are throwing our money away with rentals. in 2010 we updated our house but painting the living, dining, kitchen, and even painted the front door red. Justin built an awesome tv stand.

- Probably the best most wonderful thing that happened in 2010 without a doubt was the welcoming on our sweet little boy(whom I was told that I may never have due to infertility issues), Avery Grant. He entered the world in February 9th, 2010 at 11:59 am. Most of the year of 2009 was spent antipating his arrival so when the 9 months of anticipation finally looked me in the eyes on that date, it has forever been etched into my heart.. (I know that's cheesy, but it's the God's honest truth)

- The entire 2010 year has been a year of adjustment with a new person in our lives. Everything has changed. I was home from work with him for a little over 2 months- I went back to work part time for another 2 months, and now I'm back at full speed here at the church.

- One huge thing that happened in 2010 was the horrible burn accident that took place in September. One great thing that happenend out of the whole thing was to actually see the hands and feet of God at work. Not only did the dr.'s say that Justin would be out of work for months, but they also had initially said that he would need skin graphs on his entire left side of his body. The Lord was moving, and Justin started work just 2 weeks after the accident, and never recieved a skin graph. He has discolored spots on the right side of his body, but the skin is there and he has been healed! Also, we had some very dear dear friends of our who really helped during that time and provided food for an entire week. It was awesome.

- Our new year resolution for 2009-2010 year was to make some improvments financially! Our goal is still to be debt free and we are working hard at doing it! With a little boy now in the picture this year was filled with many unexpected and expected expenses (dr. bills, food, clothing, daycare, etc, etc) but we were still able to bay off a $5,000 dollars debt, and 1 of our vehicles. It was a smaller dent in the bill pile of bills than what we wanted, but with all things considered, I think we did alright!

-On a physical level- lol, let me just say that pregnancy had its advantages, and disadvantages for sure. One disadvantage was the fact that I am just one of thoes gals that gain the weight. Some girls are all belly, but that last month of the pregnancy was the killer. I am going to be transparent on here with the weight thing because its going to be apart of my new years resolution so I have to show the progress. I started off the at the pre-pregnancy weight of 107.. The day I went into labor (with the baby still in there) I was weighed in at 152.. One week after having Avery I had an infection was back at the dr., and weighed in at 130 on the dot... So after the baby I still had a good 23 lbs to lose and it has been an uphill battle, but I'm happy to say that I sit here at 112! Still got that last 5 lbs, but i'm getting there. yes, it's been almost a year, but like I said, I am just the type of girl that keeps the baby weight if I don't work it off!! So- I am happy to say that in 2010 I gained 43 lbs, and lost 38.

This year's resolution is going to have three parts. Last year was the first year that I made a resolution, and I actually stuck with it (as far as finances)... So this year I'm going

A: keep last years goal and push toward a fiancially debt free life. I don't want to bite off more than I can chew, so I I know it may be on the resolution list for a few more years. But we are definatly on the track. Also, one thing that I want to do is build up the savings account. We had done well in 2008, but when we bought the house, naturally, we wiped it out.. We have slowly built it back up but when unexpected expenses occure (car repairs, house repairs, dr. bills) we easliy nip it back down.

b: Physically: Like I said, I still have that last 5 lbs to go! I wanted to get there before the new year, but It's like a plateau hit! So I have to be more intentional. Yes, I want to lose that final last 5 lbs., but I also want to get more in shape in general. We have the work out equipment and p90x. My goal is to make it a priority to get into shape !!

C: Finally, Spiritually. This year, especially recently I have found myself reflecting. Justin and I are reflecting on what calling that God has for us. I used to say "im clueless", but I am now seeing more and more daily where God is leading our hearts. And we are opening ourself up to it! I am not going to say anything specifically, because I do not yet know specifics, but this year I we are going to intensly focus on where/ what God has for us. We both are feeling like God is doing something in each of out hearts separatly, which is so exciting, but we are letting God speak to us.

So yeah. thats what I'm thinking for 2011!


Thursday, January 06, 2011

No Better

When you sling your stone
Aim it at her heart
Where every crime comes from
Where every stumble starts

And save the next for me
Muster all your skill
‘Cause sin in secrecy
Is the hardest kind to kill

Lay me down with the liars
The brawlers, thieves and backbiters
Lay me down with the others
‘Cause I’m no better

There’s no justice here
Just as well you know
We’ve all got hell to pay
But grace pays all we owe

Lay me down with the liars
The brawlers, thieves and backbiters
Lay me down with the others
‘Cause I’m no better

Lay me down with the takers
Politicians, cheats and heart breakers
Lay me down with the others
‘Cause I’m no better

- Shaun Groves
I guess you can say that this week has been one that is challenging at the very least. Without exposing anyone or details, I have lost a lot of sleep- thinking. Have you ever been blindsided? Blindsided by disappointment in someone you care for? Blindsided by fear? By doubt? By hurt for another person?

This week I have.

This week dinner has been a little colder, and the house has been quieter..the laughter has been only in a whisper. Not because of anything between Justin and I, but because of being blindsided.. Because of the deep pain that we know that a family is going through.

But despite all of the chaos of a horrible situation- I know that I'm no better.

I'm no better than anyone who is involved. I'm no more justified and loved than the victims or the culprits.

Today I'm reminded of just how graceful grace really is... How loved each of us are even at our worst. How God can speak to us and through us despite the angst, sin, and impurities that are caked around our heart.

There’s no justice here
Just as well you know
We’ve all got hell to pay
But grace pays all we owe


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